27 Apr 2021 - Love Thy Self Day 6

 I guess it gets easier once the ball gets rolling. Before the day ends, I already wanted to take note of the things that I like myself for. And the first thing that came to mind was:

1. I like myself for having the smarts to find means and ways to cook "leftover" food and make it taste good.

2. I like that I can cook well and the quality is pretty consistent. I don't struggle like how Michelle describe, that every time she cooks, the results can be quite different. I like that I can taste food on its own and know what flavours blend well with one another to make a dish. 

3. I am not wearing my track shoes today and I like that I am recovering and able to move on to my "old" clothing instead of wearing "comfortable" and "easy" clothing that I wore post surgery for the convenience of movement. 

4. I met the gals yesterday for MJ and am meeting Toby for dinner and a movie tonight and I like myself for making time and space to catch up with friends.

5. I lost MJ (twice in a row already) and had to pay additional for cab to and fro also. But I did not get angry like before. I like myself for not letting money have a stronghold on me and cause me to feel "stressed" when I "lose" money that I feel I shouldn't.

6. I like myself for allowing myself to pamper myself when I am tired or don't feel like taking public transport. And I don't see that as laziness. 

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